April 20, 2017
So my defaulted student loans from my failed college attempt nearly 20 years ago are finally paid off. Hooray!
So the question I’ve been pondering is: Do I try to go back to school now?
I’ve always felt that my biggest regret in my life has been screwing up my college opportunity when I was too young, too immature, and too mentally ill to handle it at 17-19 years old. Now I have the chance to try again, at the ripe old age of 36. The only career fields that I’m truly interested in are Masters programs, and that’s a LOT to start from scratch on at my age.
Plus there’s a huge part of me that is terrified of messing it up again. Sure, I’m older and more responsible now, but I still struggle immensely with self-discipline, not mention Depression and Anxiety.
April 21, 2017
Thank you everybody for all of your support and encouragement on yesterday’s post about my ideas regarding going back to college. I’ve decided I’m going to try. My brain is the greatest asset that I have, and I’d like to think that I’m relatively bright. I feel like I’ve been wasting my intellectual potential for all of these years. Even if a degree doesn’t lead me to a different career path or higher earning potential (though I certainly hope that it will), I still strongly feel like this is something I need to do for myself. If only to prove to myself that I can.
The Technical College of the Lowcountry offers a completely online Associate of Arts transfer block. I think that’s a good place to start. It’s built to get all of my core classes done before transferring to a university to work on a Bachelors of Arts, regardless of the field of study. So that will also give me some more time before deciding definitively on a B.A. major. (Plus even if I decide to stop after completing the required 60 credit hours, at least I’ll be able to say that I have an Associates Degree.)
If I decide to continue on and stick with where my head is right now, all those credits would transfer to the University of South Carolina‘s Psychology, Sociology, or English majors, all of which I can earn right here at the Beaufort campus.
Plus because TCL is a community college, each credit hour is significantly more affordable, so it’s less financial risk if it turns out that I fuck the whole thing up again. (Bonus: They offer payment plans, too.) I’m going to do just one class to start, probably English 101, just to see how it goes. If I do well, I’ll add an additional class each semester until I learn how many classes I can reasonably handle while also working full-time.
So! My Friday night plans are to work on my application. I also need to find out how to go about getting my high school and college transcripts (though the college one is essentially worthless, as I bombed pretty much all of the core classes I took while at the College of Charleston).
Also tonight will be working on filling out the FASFA, and doing research on grants and scholarships, if there even are any for somebody my age going back to school. (My parents pointed me right to student loans when I was 16 and stupid, so I never did look into free money the first time around, meaning that this will be all new to me so any pearls of wisdom on this subject is most greatly appreciated!)
Once all that’s settled, I can set up an in-person meeting with an Academic Advisor at the school, and get on my way to making this happen. I’m already too late for getting into the Summer 2017 semester, and I’m cutting it a little close for Fall 2017 (which registration opened for 3 weeks ago), but I might still make it depending on how long it takes to get the financial aide stuff sorted out. Otherwise it won’t be until Spring 2018 that I can start, but hopefully I won’t have to wait that long.
April 21, 2017
Well. TCL application sent, and FAFSA completed and submitted. On Monday I need to make some phone calls to schedule my placement testing, and to figure out how to get a copy of my high school transcript from 19 years ago sent to the college. (I decided to not even bother with my CofC transcript since my grades were so abysmal; I’d rather start with a clean slate.) So… Now we wait, I guess.